A not entirely welcome insight

I've been revising some Clarion stories, going over my Clarion buddies' critiques, remembering all the things we all talked about every day, day after day, and I've polished up a couple of pretty good stories. "What's wrong with that?", I hear you say. Well, I've become fairly strongly afraid that I'll never be able to polish up a good story again without my Clarion buddies. That I didn't actually internalize or learn a damn thing, that I'm incapable of the kind of perspective and professionalism that will allow me to spot the deficiencies and rough spots in my own stories.

I guess I just have to ignore that fear.